Like Ellington, music is my mistress.
I keep the bills paid by writing copy. You know… sales letters, product and service descriptions… words meant to sell. And up until a few months ago, I loved it.
Or I thought I did.
Then I began hearing the call of music again. Like a former lover who suddenly comes back into your life after you’re already married to someone else.
And you feel the flame rekindling. It ignites a passion you haven’t felt for years, because you’ve tried your best to extinguish it.
You know this affair would end your tenuous marriage. But it feels so damn good. You just can’t resist.
And then it happens. You’re in love with another woman. You officially have a mistress.
Suddenly, your wife isn’t the focus of your attention anymore. She’s boring. And in the way. If it weren’t for your wife, you could spend all your time with the mistress.
The two of you could ride off into the sunset, leaving everything behind. You’ll start a new life together.
But wait…
Your wife is the one with the money. She’s the one who keeps the bills paid. The mistress just sits there and looks pretty. She’s not really the money-making type.
How will you live? How will you pay the bills?
And such is my current conundrum.
Fortunately, I’ve learned a tremendous amount over the last few years—more than just “facts” and “information”.
I trust God much more than I ever have before. In my younger years, I found it very difficult to let go and trust. I thought the universe was essentially random, and that I had to do everything myself.
But now I have much more faith in the ultimate rule of God… in the abundant nature of our universe… in the miracle of synchronicity… in opportunities that present themselves when you’re following your true passion.
I believe passion is a signpost pointing toward our own unique mission here on Earth. And for me… my mission is to create music.
I wish I would have recognized and accepted this long ago. But sometimes there are more important lessons to learn on the path to fulfilling your destiny.
I believe I’ve already learned the important ones.
At least I hope so.
