I am six months into my renewed quest to become established as a composer. Some great things have happened during that time. But it’s not as if exciting things are happening everyday. So I have to keep reminding myself how far I’ve come in the last six months.
What keeps me going is faith. I believe each person has a mandate from the universe to follow their true passion. And if you simply do that–trusting that it is the right path for you and that the Universe will provide–then opportunities will open themselves up to you.
Right now, I’m kind of feeling like I’m in a “lull”. Nothing really exciting has happened in awhile, other than meeting some interesting people.
I’m behind on bills. I’m not sure where the next check will come from. But I still trust.
Perhaps this is my “testing” period to test my resolve. But there is nothing else I want to do. I’m a composer. And I’m too old to take any more detours away from my passion. I’m not giving up. Not this time.
I’m taking what actions I can take. I’m often limited by lack of funds, but I do what I can, which is all that can be expected.
And I pray.
Life is a journey. It is a process of co-creation with God. And all journeys have mountains and valleys. The valleys are what make the mountaintops so glorious.
I sincerely believe my mission is to contribute to the musical legacy of humanity. I want to leave a significant catalog of wind band literature for succeeding generations.
Somehow, some way, the Universe will provide the opportunities and financial support for me to fulfill my mission.
I’ll see through this valley. Even if I wind up homeless, living on a friend’s couch and taking my laptop to the library to compose, I’m in this for the long haul.
I don’t care about wealth or “maintaining a standard of living”. I just want my music to be heard.